circle back to mediocrity
are you familiar with michael scott character from the office? if you are not, let me describe him for you.
he is never serious. he hardly works at all yet he was the manager of dunder mifflin scranton branch for years.
some don't understand how he stood in charge for that long but the thing is, he hardly works but when he works,
he fucking works. he is so damn good at his job. his lack of work ethic compensates for his skill.
and on the other hand, there is your boy alp. i am hardly serious aswell. i hardly studied to my way through my elementary school, middle school and high school.
and i was always at the top during that tenure (or close to the top). but here in university, it just is not enough. i have to put
so many hours into stuff that does not amaze me and i am not used to that. so when i am studying for an exam,
i frequently take breaks to check social media, lying on the bed, drinking coffee (i don't even like coffee), playing basketball
on my mini hoop, listening to music, doing ab exercises, shopping, cleaning, doing the dishes blablabla you get the idea anyway...
"sometimes my genius is almost frightening" said jeremy clarkson. mine can be frightening sometimes too.
i am having problems studying or focusing on something, and i found the solution. behold. the solution is..... not studying.
novadays i dont even feel bad if i do not study, because i know that i will get away with it somehow, someway.
i got away every single time, i have so many damn c's in my transcript that if i would be a superhero, my name would be c-man
(this one is a nominee for my worst ever joke but i still think the wordplay was sick). but what if i studied hard?
well, the past is the past, we shall not hold on to "what if"s. if i were to hold on, it would encircle me in a chamber of
depressing thoughts. what if i had marked one more question correct in university enterance exam? what would happen if i asked
that girl for a date? what if i were to bought bitcoin from 5000$ ? and the most important one, what would my life would become
if i tried even a little bit harder?
i stopped thinking those a while back. i recommend you the same. we may not have the ability to alter the past, but we sure have what
it takes to shape the future the way we want. go get some. don't be like me. don't give up on school also, i gave up on school because i tried when
i was 14, was the biggest disappointment of my life. i also tried at 18,19 and 20. i missed out on all of them BY A SINGLE FUCKING POINT each.
on my last three trials, the world fucking broke down, additional incredible stuff happened to keep me away from my goal. and i finally decided
that that was it. but i only gave up on my academic career. a lot more will follow in other fields.
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And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory
Of a time when I tried so hard
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