it was an inordinary evening at march, things have been south at the whole country, also at the bilkent university. but nothing could stop
our beloved(!) dean of engineering, he forced all of the students to take their midterms in the middle of this bullshitery. you know alpi, he
does not give any fuck about any exam or whatsoever. but i still had to attend, and i did. after the exam there was a lot of action taking place nearby,
but we decided to have dinner first. and we missed all of the action. missed it all. it only lasted 30 minutes. it would last 10 times longer at some other
university (shootout to metu, you guys rock) but we should have taken into account that bilkent is known for its apoliticality. after being dumbfounded,
we decided to hang out at ankuva. after hours of chit-chatting, there was a short silence. then, out of the blue, a friend decided to break the silence
with a question which still makes me think. "what is your biggest regret in life?"
for my case, most of you would say: "kesin kızın biridir" and you would have some reason (not that stupid one, don't worry, relax y'all). but that would not be the
satisfying answer. maybe we can address the schools i we........ no. i didn't go to the best schools but they weren't bad regarding to the regions they
were located. then what is it?
everyone, including myself have small regrets such as: "olm samsun üçüncü bitirire tüm paramızı bassaydık keşke amk", but i am looking for something bigger,
like missed once in a lifetime opportunity. and there is none. i do not think i have missed something big, at least something that i cannot acquire now or
in the future. but i wish that i had a "biggest regret", it would improve me a lot, so i wouldn't miss that opportunity again.
i was once classified as a "wonderkid", but i did not turn out all bad right? i am lazy as hell but this does not change the fact that i am
among the smartest people and one of the best students in this sorry country. maybe becoming someone recognized worldwide would take some time for me, and
this a the part of the process. i am full of hope. do not forget, jamie vardy played his first professional match at 26. i am still a few years ahead of him. estare allí al final.
but still, i will continue thinking about it (the question) and update this page (most likely not) if necessary. but what about you, what is your biggest regret? have you
thought about it before? if your answer is no, then i suggest that you spend some time thinking about it. it is fun, i promise.